Back in the Saddle Again…
Wow…life has been crazy lately. February felt like a looong marathon, and I am so thankful it’s over! Spring break has officially started, and I am excited to have this week to myself. The girls are with their dad for the whole thing, so I get to really focus on things that need to get done.
I actually started out my break with a new adventure; there are so many things I missed out on by getting married early! I went on my first solo road trip, leaving Hutch on Friday and going to see an old friend in Pittsburgh before going to see another friend in Fort Scott. It was a blast spending time with great friends and seeing new things; I even got to go over into Missourri and do a little shopping. There’s something very liberating about being out in the world, going wherever you want whenever you want (not that I actually do that a lot, but…you know). I came back today after a wonderfully relaxing weekend.
One of the books I read about divorce stated that you would know you were healing by the way you reacted to crisis, etc., and I can tell that that is true. I might get annoyed or frustrated about happenings with the girls and their lives away from me, but for the most part it doesn’t cause a major disruption in my life. There was news a few weeks ago that hit me wrong and left me incredibly emotional, but I could even recover from that relatively quickly. It’s good to know that the divorce and all that I went through isn’t going to continue to weigh me down, and that I am getting on with my life. It doesn’t mean there aren’t hard times, but it’s certainly working out.
One of the friends I went to see this weekend went to college with me and was a huge support in the past two years. She and I had a great conversation about how much I have changed in two years; it’s great to know that other people see it, too. I am much more dependant on God, although I fall off that wagon often, and I am just generally a happier person. I have always been an “old” soul, but I didn’t have a lot of real world experiences. I’ve had to grow up a lot, and that has made me much stronger.
I have about a billion thoughts tumbling around in my head, as is obvious from this silly-rambly blog…maybe this week I’ll actually get some of them out of there and down here! 
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